I'm back. I just started my college life last month. In 2 months time... I'll be having my exams. Stressstressstess. Before all this, I was trying to applying to Singapore, I took a few tests but it wasn't successful. Therefore, I'm back in Malaysia.
At the beginning of this month, I received an email mentioning that I am shortlisted and they would like me to take a test and interview... They offered me a Diploma which is my second choice therefore I believe giving up on Singapore and applying for college in Malaysia wasn't wrong and so I should not go for the test and interview which is on the 23rd of March.
There's this guy in my life. I don't know how to keep him... he thinks that I don't love him and he don't know what he means to me. I know he loves me and for all the things he did for and to me... and he bought me presents for valentines day... I truly appreciate it. He does piss me off like how he does a few things... I guess all I want is him to be perfect like how messy he can be when he eat something and how serious he should be at times... but I guess I have no rights to make anyone change themselves. He is not expecting too much from me but I'm doing too little for him. And guess what? I would like to focus on my studies. I wish relationships doesn't need time... as long as you love me and I love you, but sadly, time is needed. I guess everyone would like to spend time with their love ones. I prefer a guy who will still love me even if I have no intention to go out with him for a month, I will still love him and I am not really the type of girl who fall out for a guy easily. We text until we say goodnight to each other everynight, without him knowing that I actually fell asleep many times but I wake up to reply him until he says goodnight? However sometimes, I am so tired... I just can't wake up and reply him, in fact, I wake up at around 2hours later to just read his I love you. but at times I just say nights first because I am tired and I don't want him to be waiting for my text. He says that I don't want to spend time with him, I'm sorry. I'm not a good girlfriend. In fact, I'm more suitable to be single I guess. He thinks that I don't love him, my heartaches when he texts me no i love you, when he is upset, when he starts knowing why I do certain things and start saying sorry... they all make me sad too. I guess he might put an end to this sooner or later because of how I am to him lately. I'm so sorry for being an ass.
